I am regretting now. I regret wanting to know the O level music text ahead of the schedule. I regretted it after Natalie called, and I'm thankful she did. Immediately after the call, I knew I was wrong. But I didn't want to accept it and tried to run away from that mistake. So I read the news, it didn't matter if it was about some boring politics - I just wanted to get my mind off it. After a while, I knew I couldn't keep avoiding it. I knew that it was beyond my morality and my Christian stand. I couldn't bear the thought of looking at my Music grade while knowing that it wasn't clean. There's nothing I can do to make time turn back, but at least I can learn from this mistake. I decided that since I knew the text 3 days before, I'll wait till 3 days after the planned date (Sunday) before I start working on my composition. I'll also memorise one of the texts on Thursday. It's not going to make up for everything, but at least I'll learn from this self-imposed penalty.

"Whatever is popular isn't always right, and whatever is right isn't always popular." I thought it was acceptable since so many students were already using unscrupulous methods of doing their composition, but I've just learnt otherwise.

I collected the medical report today. So now I have some official document to prove that I have Beta Thalsaemia. Not like it's going to change my life from what it already is... And anyway it was kind of suspected because it's genetic - my great grandmother, grandfather, dad, his bro and jean have it. There are disadvantages to it:

1. For Thalasaemia minor patient who marries someone else with that condition and decides to have a child, the child will have a 25% chance of getting Thalasaemia Major, which is fatal.

2. Blood count will always be less than normal, and no amount of iron supplements is going to work.